After much time and practice I have finally found the way to make the perfect hot cocoa. I loooooove hot cocoa. Perfect temp. Perfect marshmellows. Perfect ammount of powder. I am proud.

A movie this week dosent look possible. Cleaning the house for family coming over on the weekend as well as babysitting. Honestly I feel bad taking away my brothers only time to be with sarah by asking him to babysit. tomorrow Speidens coming over. Wednesday brother has dentist appointment so he cant babysit then. Thursday and friday spent cleaning. Next week Speidens coming over tuesday and either thursday or friday, he said. Then gramma says she wants to take me and meg to the movies sometime next week also. That reminds me I must call Kate and tell her same hing because she wanted to hang out also.
I am wanting to get my hair cut. Mom is constantally reminding me of how pretty I look with my hair layered and it hasnt been cut in soooo long. After I take a shower its amazing my hair gets so perfectaly curly. Little spirals in my hair. Its soooo pretty I wish my hair would stay like that but only half of my hair is curly. Thats the part of my hair on the bottom by my neck. the rest is straight so the curly underneath causes my hair to be poofy. My hair is my number one fav part of myself. I loooove my hair.
With as tired as i am and wanting to go to bed like you wouldnt believe I am going to wait up till probably midnight for the brother to get home so I can beg him to give Speiden a ride over to our house tomorrow morning so me and Speiden can have much of the day togather.
I dont understand why my body refuses to be tired only on days I dont have to go to school. i want sleep. I want never ending dreams of hidden rooms and speiden.
My fav dream is the one of the hidden rooms. My secret rooms. Small doors only I see. Small rooms only I can go into. In grandmas house. This amazing place where I can sit and be alone. Like grandpas computer room. All for myself. Privet and peaceful. lately i've just been dreaming of missing the school bus on days I want to go to school because i miss speiden and school is the only for sure way i'll see him. a lot of dreams of missing the bus after school too and being stuck alone at school with no ride home. No kidding.
My mind is twisted.